Finally something normal

Wow 3 weeks of term break passed by god damn fast! It's so fast that I took less than a minute to recall what i've been doing the past 23 days!. Generally, I've spend most of the time watching world cup, throwing money to singapore pools and most of all spend huge amount of time with my girlfriend. Hey dear i want to thank you personally here for the all the wonderful moment we spent together during the holis and of cause the rocking experiences that both of us shared lol. I'm so touched by that thing you gave me today, you made me feel very special. All this while i've been trying my very best not to hurt or be hurt by other people, unwilling to give a shit or trust anyone been very thick skin and hide all my gayish emotions which screwed up alot of things in the past, or maybe that's simply I'm not man enough. You came to my life and break that barrier i created. Thank you. I strongly believe this time everything will turn out fine, and nothing can stop us, not even with the number 42.

By the way i hope i didn't neglect anyone out there, i'm trying hard to balance my life now between studies, relationships and earning some cash. Man is what man does. If I've not been the person you hoped for, don't give me a chance to change, accept me.

Bohemian Rhapsody

Is this the real life, is this just fantasy
Caught in a landslide, no escape from reality
Open your eyes,
look up to the skies and see I'm just a poor boy,
I need no sympathy
Because I'm easy come, easy go, little high, little low
Anyway the wind blows, doesn't really matter to me...to me

Mama, just killed a man, put a gun against his head
Pulled my trigger, now he's dead
Mama, life had just begun
But now I've gone and thrown it all away
Mama oooh... Didn't mean to make you cry
If I'm not back again this time tomorrow
Carry on, carry on, as if nothing really matters
Too late, my time has come, sends shivers down my spine
Body's aching all the time
Goodbye everybody, I've got to go
Gotta leave you all behind and face the truth
Mama oooh (any way the wind blows) I don't want to die,
I sometimes wish I'd never been born at all

I see a little silhouetto of a man
Scaramouche, scaramouche, will you do the Fandango
Thunderbolt and lightning, very very frightening me
Galileo (Galileo) Galileo (Galileo) Galileo figaro (Magnifico)
But I'm just a poor boy and nobody loves me
He's just a poor boy from a poor family
Spare him his life from this monstrosity
Easy come easy go, will you let me go
Bismillah! No, we will not let you go, let him go
Bismillah! We will not let you go, let him go
Bismillah! We will not let you go, let me go
Will not let you go, let me go Will not let you go let me go
No, no, no, no, no, no, no
Mama mia, mama mia, mama mia let me go
Beelzebub has a devil put aside for me, for me, for me

So you think you can stone me and spit in my eye
So you think you can love me and leave me to die
Oh baby, can't do this to me baby
Just gotta get out, just gotta get right out of here

Nothing really matters, anyone can see
Nothing really matters, nothing really matters to me
Any way the wind blows...

Where is the love?

Sometime you just want to have the rights to love someone you want and not let others affect your feelings and emotions with their stereotypeness. In this world where people judge each other by their looks instead of personality and characters, it's hard not to get distracted. We have people whom are always not satisfied with their life influencing others to end their love lifes, we have people whom just couldn't commit or was devastated due to their previous unhappy relationship go around trying to break other couples up. And then there's someone whom always wants to be the 3rd party because of the challenges they bring which can give them emotional pleasure in trying to break a happy couple up.

Recently, i don't understand why and what the fuss is all about the colin and kero blog. Okay so they are a gay couple. And in my opinion they have every rights to remain as a couple and no one should really be fussed up all over it. Though to be honest i'm abit skeptical about their relationship not because they are gays, mainly because i have the feeling that they are purposely trying to get attention from the public, one of the possibilities is that they are purposely misleading the people to think they are really a gay couple in order to gain attention which in fact they are not. The other reason is maybe they have their gay pride up in their mind after getting too much up their butt. But whatever the reasons is if they are indeed a couple, I wish them all the best and so to their parents.

And btw i am attached now, and yes i have every rights to be attached and every right to love someone. If you have any negative opinion about my love life, you can shove them up your own ass alright? Haha just kidding, i'm not an attention grabber so whatever your impression of me doesn't affects my self esteem. It's always good to mind your own business. I'm trying hard too

Emotions

OO! I'm in love! For the first time after years. Ever since i've been finding fault with myself, it happen at the moment when i stop, finding fault with myself. Yes this is what a blog should be right? Throwing out all your feelings with correct phrasing and words to not let others think you're a psycho right? Unfortunately i am a psycho. Don't mess with me.
I suspect the whole thing is beautifully crafted out by someone. Maybe GOD, no not the GOD of Abraham's bible. The GOD known as MONAD from gnosticsm, buddhism and hinduism I believe. Or maybe the GOD of Agnostic whom shall not be known to any beings. Sounds more probable. Okay skip the religion part.
This is too sudden and shocking, it's like getting knocked down by a car on a passenger pathway. How can I be so caught off guard? It's a very complex feeling, I really need to try my best and control my emotions come what may. I don't want to ruin it this time with all my emotional problems which did it for the previous few. DUH. "It's just emotion, taking me over" - BeeGees
Being hopefully more matured now, and knowing how to be a man to a certain extend, I wish everything turns out fine, or either way turn out to be something else i cannot forsee which i will trade some of my hair to be good. Hmm as long as i live my life do my things and be myself, nothing can go wrong right? Though basically the problem is with the other party, I'm fine and willing to accept anything, with certain criterias of cause. Okay i won't ask much, just give me your heart!