OO! I'm in love! For the first time after years. Ever since i've been finding fault with myself, it happen at the moment when i stop, finding fault with myself. Yes this is what a blog should be right? Throwing out all your feelings with correct phrasing and words to not let others think you're a psycho right? Unfortunately i am a psycho. Don't mess with me.
I suspect the whole thing is beautifully crafted out by someone. Maybe GOD, no not the GOD of Abraham's bible. The GOD known as MONAD from gnosticsm, buddhism and hinduism I believe. Or maybe the GOD of Agnostic whom shall not be known to any beings. Sounds more probable. Okay skip the religion part.
This is too sudden and shocking, it's like getting knocked down by a car on a passenger pathway. How can I be so caught off guard? It's a very complex feeling, I really need to try my best and control my emotions come what may. I don't want to ruin it this time with all my emotional problems which did it for the previous few. DUH. "It's just emotion, taking me over" - BeeGees
Being hopefully more matured now, and knowing how to be a man to a certain extend, I wish everything turns out fine, or either way turn out to be something else i cannot forsee which i will trade some of my hair to be good. Hmm as long as i live my life do my things and be myself, nothing can go wrong right? Though basically the problem is with the other party, I'm fine and willing to accept anything, with certain criterias of cause. Okay i won't ask much, just give me your heart!
