Something is missing in my life.
I'm not sure what i want either.
Neither am i sure who i am now.
Mentally im tired of my social life.
Im just a lazy person
and im starting to feel quite uncomfortable communicating with some people.
I just want to be alone.
I just want to do things alone
I need no one to bother me
I just need a company of a beautiful girl
Or maybe i need someone else to love me
Am i asking for too much?
Yet i do not have the energy to pursue what i want.
I am lazy maybe
I read self enrichment books to make myself feel more positive about life
And i tried to apply those philosophies i learnt to my life
Seems that i don't feel any different
Or am i doing it the wrong way?
"There is no self"
Famous phrase of the great Buddha
How can i achieve that?
Bah man.. im tired
I hope tommorow will be better
Stupid guard duty....
Be back on friday i will...
Good day!
