Never gonna let you go

SO NIIICCEEE!!!

I was as wrong as I could be to let you get away from me
I'll regret that move for as long as I'm living
But now that I've come to see the light
All I wanna do is make things right
So just say the word and tell me that I'm forgiven

You and me
We're gonna be better than we were before
I loved you then but now I intend
To open up and love you even more
This time you can be sure

I'm never gonna let you go
I'm gonna hold you in my arms forever
Gonna try and make up for all the times
I hurt you so
Gonna hold your body close to mine
From this day on we're gonna be together
Oh, I swear this time
I'm never gonna let you go

Looking back now it seems so clear
I had it all when you were here
Oh, you gave it all and I took it for granted
But if there's some feeling left in you
Some flicker of love that still shines through
Let's talk it out
Let's talk about second chances

Wait and see
It's gonna be sweeter than it was before
I gave some then but now I intend
To dedicate myself to giving more
This time you can be sure

I'm never gonna let you go
I'm gonna hold you in my arms forever
Gonna try and make up for all the times
I hurt you so
Gonna hold your body close to mine
From this day on we're gonna be together
Oh, I swear this time
I'm never gonna let you go

[break]

So if you'll just say you want me too...

I'm never gonna let you go
I'm gonna hold you in my arms forever
Gonna try and make up for all the times
I hurt you so
Gonna hold your body close to mine
From this day on we're gonna be together
Oh, I swear this time
I'm never gonna let you go

Never gonna let you go
Hold you in my arms forever
Gonna try and make up for all the times
I hurt you so
Hold your body close to mine
From this day on we're gonna be together
Oh, I swear this time
I'm never gonna let you go

Fascination

Clubbing is a leisure activity but can only be enjoyed when you're doing with the people whom you feel comfortable with and on the right day, on someday you just have a feeling it's gonna be a plain waste of money. I don't know what am i doing clubbing tonight, probably too bored at home and nothing nor anyone else can spice me up.

These few days. Something happened that does not concerns me at all and its just irritating the shit out of me. Ok i submit to my pride, see i'm always screwing up my relationship with the opposite sex, never ever had i succeed so far in maintaining a respectful, admiring and lovable relationship with a women for long since the last time i decided to remain single. It really suckmeoff into thinking there is a big fucking problem with my attitude. Who am i? I don't know who am i now i can honestly say that. And i am glad i did because this meant im letting go of my ego according to Eckhart Tolle.

Whatever i did, whatever i said had been a 3rd person point of view from my own perspective. In actual fact i'm really tired and moodless to deal with whatever that is happening around me, it just really bores me to death. I suck in EQ i admit it. I try to act sincere which is obviously pure bad acting on my part. I try to be the alpha male but end up exposing what a real wuss i am. I tried to pronounce words properly but i get tongue tied most of the time and jumble up my sentence and stuck at part of it. This is really fucked up, no one will understand how i feel.

So, yet every now and then i put up this expressionless face with occasionally being amusingly retarded just to create laughter from my peers, all these without pure wits and sensible humour, but just acting retarded to get people to laugh at me. Especially when i'm drunk.

Tomorrow i'm going to enroll in a UNI and i'm not even excited about it, it just makes me feel i'm going to waste my $$ on some courses i don't give a shit about. I am merely taking this course and enrolling into this uni because i've no where else to go! How pathetic i can be? FUCK man! ARGHH!!!



This blog just shows the other side of myself, a darker and meaner side of me. I'm fucking mental!

Accept...your....fate

Accept your fate ELZW. You are totally ptt today. PTT means pathetic.
U do nothing but sleep sleep sleep and feel tired all day
Life has become a hassle. Fuck this, that and all those shit.
ID: So what you want has been given to you. What do you intend to do now?
Superego: HAHAHA honestly i don't know...better off being myself.

Ok i agree..bye blog. cya again

18 ways to attract women

1. Know what you want! (Sit down make a list of the thing u do want in a relationship)

2. Pay attention! (Be interested in people and show them that you are interested)

3. Listen! (Make them feel important)

4. Know your talent! (Know what you're good at and let them show)

5. Take action! (Get out there! Stop staying at home)

6. Be complimentary! (Say good things about her dressing and her looks)

7. Be Sincere!

8. Be Honest! (Don't make up stories. be who you really are!)

9. Share Stories! (Tell people about your life!)

10. Be a positive force! (Do good things for others!)

11. Do what you like! (Have fun, do what you enjoy)

12. Learn something new! (Broaden your horizons)

13. Be aware of what you're thinking! (think positive thoughts)

14. Forget what you don't want! (think about what you want)

15. Surround yourself with good!

16. Clear your mind! (get rid of the chaos inside your head)

17. Donate your time! (help others out!)

18. Donate your money! (Be generous!)

ok

so everything seems normal everybody seems their usual self, eugene spending money like no tomorrow.

seriously someone should filmed down what happened ydae night. i'd like to know cuz im too drunk to realise.

Spyed

i got spyed ccb.

reinventing myself

Ok for the first time after so many emotional post, this is not going to be one.
First of all, i'm so troubled by what am i going to do in the future, I'm 22 years old this year and i have not figure out what to do after my ORD. There are a few options:

1. Get a degree in Austrlian Maritime College (The course i studied from SP enables me to receive advanced standing from the degree program that i will be taking.)

2. Sit for A levels and try to get good result to ensure a place in one of the 3 Local Uni. (I know myself, I won't succeed. Not being pessimistic, just being realistic.)

3. Start working straight (Get some experience while maybe using that experience to try and enter a local Uni.)

4. Take my SAT test while in NS (I might stand a higher chance to get into SMU if i score well)

5. Get a private degree without continuing the subject from my diploma (Studying a completely new course, preferably in SIM etc. psychology; It's gonna be fucking expensive :( )

6. Get my Maritime degree from AMC (Austrlian Maritime College) while taking SATs during NS and aim for a second degree in SMU (Singapore Management University). (Sound idea, but does it really matter if i get another degree that is completely general like psychology? I need some opinions seriously, but who can i ask from?)

7. Continue to study insurance and become an insurance agent. (At the same time play stocks in SGX to earn some extra keep. Not a really good idea imo, i'll probably laze off after a while, I know myself)

8. Other options not yet defined.

See. I need help, honestly i don't know who can give me the answer, I need to make my decision within these 2 weeks, it will most likely determine what type of life i'll be leading for the next decade or so.

I wanna get married before 30 and a car at the age of 28. With my own ability.

Someone help me!!...

to run or not to run

Now face it eugene, you're just running away from the inevitable, or should i say, running away from hopelessness. What? Hopelessness? Is that even a word in the dictionary?

Ok i don't know but i think im just not having enough rest. Even now when i'm feeling tired i just can't get to sleep. Oh man what's wrong? Fucking SAF ruining my life....

Ok on doing some self reflection. I think i should put the blame on myself instead...START ACCEPTING THINGS EUGENE, BLAME YOURSELF FOR UR IDIOCRACY!!! DONT PUT THE BLAME ON OTHERS!! ARGHHH!!