Update 30/7/2012

Seriously what have i been doing all these while? 2 and the half month have past and i'm acting like nothing has happened. Now i feel somehow this post is going to be some random rants again that probably make no grammatical sense. Yes i admit, i missed you... and everyday without fail i log in to facebook just to check out how you're doing. I think i'm one of the dumbest guy in the world and yes no matter how many other girls i got intimate with, its never going to feel the same when i'm with you. What's the deal here... a grown up man, 26 years old soon, and don't even know how to handle this relationship...this already broken relationship. Maybe somehow i think its best i don't get into any rs again... i kinda lose hope in love. All my mind is filled with now is lust and sex and how to get into other girl's pants. But in the midst of all these i keep thinking about you.. the good time we had, the cute moments you gave me. I kinda miss all of these but now im just a walking cummer, i've nothing else to do other than work except to party here and there, drink till my heart content, wasting money just to satisfy my needs i think im harming myself more and i know i should cut down.. somehow if i don't do all these i feel empty... i don't care.. i want to but i really dont know how to express myself.. i need to do something bad i need to reset my life.....