Ok let me get this straight, this is to someone whom i've not yet given my blog address to. Basically, me and you, I've been observing, we're really really the same type of person ok? The difference is age and sex and of cause height and weight too. In what ways are we similar? Okay what i know is we are very into observing human behaviours and constantly trying to get into the other persons mindset. We presume we know things, but yet the truth is we do not. But both of us are highly self righteous and will fight till the end just to protect our own believes and justifications. We like to act all cool and treat it as if it's just some minor shit case, but inside we know it's serious and it definitely would affects us, mentally. If someone we know gets entangled in a complex situation, we will be there to provide as much help as possible, even we know what we say might have no effects on them eventually and they might not even heed our words. It's common sometimes we get high headed at times and causes people to be irritated towards our arrogant behaviour and self esteems. Okay we are both creative in our imaginations and we can actually totally understand how both of us are thinking even though we try as hard as possible not to know what are we thinking and choose to act blur instead. And then when things don't go our way, we just burst out and might even be extremely straightforward and realistic in our judgement towards the other party. Both of us knows how things works out and how things doesn't works out. But sometimes we ignore our own logics and screw things up despite knowing.
We joke ok? We can shit alot from our mouth. We can drive others crazy. You and me are the same. MENTALLY!!! -Ok i might just be presuming things- We keep things to ourselves and lose our self esteem easily and always trying to find the reason for that. We are hypocrites in some ways. Just like me you can actually treat some things as if as it doesn't matter and be cold towards it and totally treat it as if it didn't happened before. But the thing is you mind! Well, i'm very sorry about that.
Sunday, April 30, 2006
Wednesday, April 26, 2006
Find ourselves
-Self-
Ever since we were borned it was empty, we had nothing on, we don't understand the action and words of people around us, we don't get any clue from anything around us because we have no knowledge of anything. It was the beginning, we have nothing. Nothing to worry about. Can you imagine being shown to a mirror of your image just soon after you were born? Isn't that abit surprising for ourselves? Now what we'll probably be thinking is, "okay now i saw a woman holding me, and i looked into a mirror i saw the woman whom was holding me, and that little moving thing there, what's that? Okay. No we won't actually be thinking about that, we might intepret it through our own imaginations, and we will never remember how we use to see ourself as. Forever. The self thought we had then was never known. It was nothing.
-Losing Ourselves-
As the clock ticks since the day when we were born, we were exposed to and surrounded by more people. From these people we learnt their facial expressions and slowly adapt to their lip movement and then to the sound that comes out from their lips. From then on, what we do, how we act and who we were no longer applied here, we will start losing ourselves. We will all be merely copying other's movements and actions. At least until we start our primary school educations, never will we be questionning who we are and what are we here for? Simply because we see others react to how we act, and unconsciously we will try to make others satisfy with our actions. While during the process of making others happy, we notice the unhappiness of some whom were not happy from the way we try to act that will make another person happy. For instance, you compromised your friends and decided to play catching with them, the teacher will shout at you disagreeing at what you are doing, because in her point of view what you doing might cause distruption to yourself and others while trying to make your friends happy by playing along with them.
-The Conclusion, there's no self-
With Alexander, comes Cesar, with Cesar comes Gengis Khan, With Gengis Khan comes Napoleon and with Napoleon comes Hitler. History tends to repeats itself, not in the exact same way nor same personalities. But the same concept. Notice the way we think and behaves, through experiences and observance, there are people in the past that thinks and behaves the same way too? They might not be the same person nor might they share the same blood. They are people even though living in different conditions adapts similar philosophy as us. We eat so we can live, we love so we can breed, there's war because there is hate and we manipulate so we can rule. So generally, we are all conformists, we behaves in certain way to be accepted into society. A murderer is not accepted into our society because what he did is deemed heritical to our believes. He shall either be persecuted by capital punishment or be condemned to eternal prison sentence. If in cases that he be released. He will be instituitionalised by his own imprisonment and he will not be able to adapt to the outside world.
"Nothing is impossible, impossible is nothing, will we be able to defy the possibly impossible?"
Ever since we were borned it was empty, we had nothing on, we don't understand the action and words of people around us, we don't get any clue from anything around us because we have no knowledge of anything. It was the beginning, we have nothing. Nothing to worry about. Can you imagine being shown to a mirror of your image just soon after you were born? Isn't that abit surprising for ourselves? Now what we'll probably be thinking is, "okay now i saw a woman holding me, and i looked into a mirror i saw the woman whom was holding me, and that little moving thing there, what's that? Okay. No we won't actually be thinking about that, we might intepret it through our own imaginations, and we will never remember how we use to see ourself as. Forever. The self thought we had then was never known. It was nothing.
-Losing Ourselves-
As the clock ticks since the day when we were born, we were exposed to and surrounded by more people. From these people we learnt their facial expressions and slowly adapt to their lip movement and then to the sound that comes out from their lips. From then on, what we do, how we act and who we were no longer applied here, we will start losing ourselves. We will all be merely copying other's movements and actions. At least until we start our primary school educations, never will we be questionning who we are and what are we here for? Simply because we see others react to how we act, and unconsciously we will try to make others satisfy with our actions. While during the process of making others happy, we notice the unhappiness of some whom were not happy from the way we try to act that will make another person happy. For instance, you compromised your friends and decided to play catching with them, the teacher will shout at you disagreeing at what you are doing, because in her point of view what you doing might cause distruption to yourself and others while trying to make your friends happy by playing along with them.
-The Conclusion, there's no self-
With Alexander, comes Cesar, with Cesar comes Gengis Khan, With Gengis Khan comes Napoleon and with Napoleon comes Hitler. History tends to repeats itself, not in the exact same way nor same personalities. But the same concept. Notice the way we think and behaves, through experiences and observance, there are people in the past that thinks and behaves the same way too? They might not be the same person nor might they share the same blood. They are people even though living in different conditions adapts similar philosophy as us. We eat so we can live, we love so we can breed, there's war because there is hate and we manipulate so we can rule. So generally, we are all conformists, we behaves in certain way to be accepted into society. A murderer is not accepted into our society because what he did is deemed heritical to our believes. He shall either be persecuted by capital punishment or be condemned to eternal prison sentence. If in cases that he be released. He will be instituitionalised by his own imprisonment and he will not be able to adapt to the outside world.
"Nothing is impossible, impossible is nothing, will we be able to defy the possibly impossible?"
Sunday, April 23, 2006
Religions that kills
Words in red can be ignored.
'He who will drink from my mouth will become like me. I myself shall become he, and the things that are hidden will be revealed to him'
I just began my job as a promoter for Samsung 2 days ago, as i was posted to Suntec City Courts to help Samsung to promote their mp3s. I also happen to be in the IT section which was shared by 2 girls and a few middle aged men whom were official salesman hired by courts. Needless to say, I manage to click well with the 2 girls as we were around the same ages and we were happening to be sharing our life stories and exchange some views regarding each other's religions. Of cause as someone whom stands for my own view of righteousness and philosophy through influence of numerous religions and philosophers. While being skeptical about the root of Literal believes. As in those who believes what they read from books and devote themselves and discriminating people who doesn't read or believes it, that of cause includes believing words from mouths of people who claim they are being chosen to spread messages from how they intepreted from books that were written thousands of years ago.
As strictly as I am tied to my own thoughts and believes I am in every due respects tolerant of every religions. I attend different religious ceremony of my friends and I do not wish to directly show any disrespect towards them by condemning their thoughts and believes. That is until I hear some people trying to promote their religion by saying those who doesn't believe in their religions will end up in hell! And that is exactly what i heard from one of my fellow promoters whom told me that is what their pastors emphasized to them.
Firstly, let's put this issue out of religious context. Imagine a qualified teacher, someone whom was suppose to be a role model to the people he/she was suppose to share their knowledge to. Educated the people he is teaching to condemn others who don't believe in unreliable thousands of years old tales to go to hell? Pardon me. But. WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON!?!? What type of hypocritical teachings is this? Are they trying to tell us to believe in what was written and said by people that lives thousands of years ago whom think the earth was FLAT?! And that the Sun Goes Round The Earth!? And you call them, teachers? Trusting them that they are people whom will guide you to a place called heaven with their discrimination and breach of trust to society?
Now let me tell you some facts about your own religion according to my POV and some research and documentaries I've viewed upon, If you ignorant people are going to insist that we non believers are going to go to hell for not sharing your thoughts. This is particularly towards the pastors and teachers who condemns non believers that so call represents the words and wisdom of Jesus Christ. The Bible consists of gospels that was chosen and finalised by a man whom was facing a competition in winning faith for his own belief, in an era where pagans and jews believes dominated the western worlds. A Pope in the 100s A.D. From out of more than 20 gospels written on account of jesus life chosed only 4 and were then established into so called the foundation and "truth." of Christianity. This is by of cause peoples whom were trying to create propogandas on how to get more people to join their sides and faiths. It's like how some companies intensively market their products through commercials, newspaper and magazines and attract others to buy them. In the end this man manage to convince the majority of the people that his words are the most genuine and denounces other believes and openly condemning them and call them heresy in order to win people unto their sides. If in today's world, when an organisation is competing with another organisation in marketing their products, they shouldn't openly condemn their competitors. This will result in a defamation law suit! And because of these dictatored text. Almost billions were killed by the words in it over the past numerous centuries. All these because of the naiveness and stupidity of this guy's decisions and words.
So much so that I have been called upon to deliver these words with great vengeance and serious anger to people who disrespects humanity as respectfully as I can. "Fuck you!" Stereotyped religious leaders and extremists. Here is an example of one.
http://www.spikedhumor.com/articles/24864/Fox_News_Baptist_Protestor.html
Well and finally of cause there are people who just want to believe in their own religions, their own god and were tolerant towards others believe instead of condemning them straight to hell. These people have all rights to do so and will be respected by all people who holds the same thinking as theirs. What we all must know is No one is right, no one is wrong. But if you're letting your senses fails you and hating other people and condemning innocents whom have the right to believe in what they want to. YOU SHOULD DIE A HEFTY DEATH AND BURN IN THE SEA OF HELL'S FIRE!
'He who will drink from my mouth will become like me. I myself shall become he, and the things that are hidden will be revealed to him'
I just began my job as a promoter for Samsung 2 days ago, as i was posted to Suntec City Courts to help Samsung to promote their mp3s. I also happen to be in the IT section which was shared by 2 girls and a few middle aged men whom were official salesman hired by courts. Needless to say, I manage to click well with the 2 girls as we were around the same ages and we were happening to be sharing our life stories and exchange some views regarding each other's religions. Of cause as someone whom stands for my own view of righteousness and philosophy through influence of numerous religions and philosophers. While being skeptical about the root of Literal believes. As in those who believes what they read from books and devote themselves and discriminating people who doesn't read or believes it, that of cause includes believing words from mouths of people who claim they are being chosen to spread messages from how they intepreted from books that were written thousands of years ago.
As strictly as I am tied to my own thoughts and believes I am in every due respects tolerant of every religions. I attend different religious ceremony of my friends and I do not wish to directly show any disrespect towards them by condemning their thoughts and believes. That is until I hear some people trying to promote their religion by saying those who doesn't believe in their religions will end up in hell! And that is exactly what i heard from one of my fellow promoters whom told me that is what their pastors emphasized to them.
Firstly, let's put this issue out of religious context. Imagine a qualified teacher, someone whom was suppose to be a role model to the people he/she was suppose to share their knowledge to. Educated the people he is teaching to condemn others who don't believe in unreliable thousands of years old tales to go to hell? Pardon me. But. WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON!?!? What type of hypocritical teachings is this? Are they trying to tell us to believe in what was written and said by people that lives thousands of years ago whom think the earth was FLAT?! And that the Sun Goes Round The Earth!? And you call them, teachers? Trusting them that they are people whom will guide you to a place called heaven with their discrimination and breach of trust to society?
Now let me tell you some facts about your own religion according to my POV and some research and documentaries I've viewed upon, If you ignorant people are going to insist that we non believers are going to go to hell for not sharing your thoughts. This is particularly towards the pastors and teachers who condemns non believers that so call represents the words and wisdom of Jesus Christ. The Bible consists of gospels that was chosen and finalised by a man whom was facing a competition in winning faith for his own belief, in an era where pagans and jews believes dominated the western worlds. A Pope in the 100s A.D. From out of more than 20 gospels written on account of jesus life chosed only 4 and were then established into so called the foundation and "truth." of Christianity. This is by of cause peoples whom were trying to create propogandas on how to get more people to join their sides and faiths. It's like how some companies intensively market their products through commercials, newspaper and magazines and attract others to buy them. In the end this man manage to convince the majority of the people that his words are the most genuine and denounces other believes and openly condemning them and call them heresy in order to win people unto their sides. If in today's world, when an organisation is competing with another organisation in marketing their products, they shouldn't openly condemn their competitors. This will result in a defamation law suit! And because of these dictatored text. Almost billions were killed by the words in it over the past numerous centuries. All these because of the naiveness and stupidity of this guy's decisions and words.
So much so that I have been called upon to deliver these words with great vengeance and serious anger to people who disrespects humanity as respectfully as I can. "Fuck you!" Stereotyped religious leaders and extremists. Here is an example of one.
http://www.spikedhumor.com/articles/24864/Fox_News_Baptist_Protestor.html
Well and finally of cause there are people who just want to believe in their own religions, their own god and were tolerant towards others believe instead of condemning them straight to hell. These people have all rights to do so and will be respected by all people who holds the same thinking as theirs. What we all must know is No one is right, no one is wrong. But if you're letting your senses fails you and hating other people and condemning innocents whom have the right to believe in what they want to. YOU SHOULD DIE A HEFTY DEATH AND BURN IN THE SEA OF HELL'S FIRE!
Sunday, April 16, 2006
Unrequited love
Unrequited love. I've been experiencing this forever since my hormones begin to rage I guess. Even until now, I'm facing a seemingly hopeless choice. Though I've been striving to gain a foothold of myself lately just to see through this sudden emotional impact that still harvest in my heart. The recent one has given me this negatively joyous feeling, which contradicts even the man who claim that he can solve all problems.
Actually I don't even know what exactly is wrong with me. Am i in possesion of a iron heart? A heart which have been broken too much being a piece of meat to be replaced by iron because no one is able to fix back to it's original piece again? All these for the unrequited love that haunts me even though I'm at the end of my teenage years.
This sorrowness is just too draggy, I really need someone to settle me down. They say we shouldn't find love, we should let love find us. Monks are definitely not role models for this philosophy. Guess they must've gave up on love. Or maybe they were suffering from EUL. Eternal Unrequited Love. Aahahaha. Life is suffering.(According to Buddha)
Okay I shouldn't mock them, I'm no better either. Life is suffering yes, I can't change it, that's why i'm changing with it. Let time tells what shall eventually befalls me.
Actually I don't even know what exactly is wrong with me. Am i in possesion of a iron heart? A heart which have been broken too much being a piece of meat to be replaced by iron because no one is able to fix back to it's original piece again? All these for the unrequited love that haunts me even though I'm at the end of my teenage years.
This sorrowness is just too draggy, I really need someone to settle me down. They say we shouldn't find love, we should let love find us. Monks are definitely not role models for this philosophy. Guess they must've gave up on love. Or maybe they were suffering from EUL. Eternal Unrequited Love. Aahahaha. Life is suffering.(According to Buddha)
Okay I shouldn't mock them, I'm no better either. Life is suffering yes, I can't change it, that's why i'm changing with it. Let time tells what shall eventually befalls me.
Friday, April 07, 2006
Thursday, April 06, 2006
Bottled up
I know why i am blogging now. Because i can't sleep, even if it's 5 past midnight.
I just cant friggin sleep, and because of that i begin to reminisce. It's only a fact that time knows no boundary, as it flows while i'm being self centered over a series of unfortunate event that happened to me not long ago. Why am I suddenly feeling so inferior? And so much so that i always wanted to help people with their problems and think for a moment and notice that I can't even solve my own? Until now I've always been confused regarding what to do now in order to be successful in the future. There's just so many things to think about doing and yet i fail to execute any of them with enthusiasm or satisfaction.
I remember not long ago one fortune teller offered me some advice, haha I know it's abit crazy to believe in this sort of things, she told me to focus on a sole target and work towards it, I am not suitable to do multi tasking. I've been noting what she said until now and paying attention to opportunities that I've been given to do things; work etc. Sadly I haven't found anything currently in my life for me to solely focus on. Other than getting my Diploma and my driving license, or maybe that is what i should just focus and work on?
And because now is holiday, I've nothing to worry with education, maybe that's the reason why i feel like an empty bottle, nothing inside and not nice to look at, just an empty bottle waiting for something or someone to fill in. Someone whom now have bare affliation with me who I've been thinking alot about and don't even or rarely contact each other.
Maybe my life sounds far from a fairy tale, but fairy tales can be made with truth and abit of magical moments in it. I'm waiting for the magical moments.
-Oh and dont worry my little friend who has alot of stuffs to worry about, regarding your attachments and stuffs haha i will be there to give you morale boost!-
I just want to sleep but I can't! Fu*k!
I just cant friggin sleep, and because of that i begin to reminisce. It's only a fact that time knows no boundary, as it flows while i'm being self centered over a series of unfortunate event that happened to me not long ago. Why am I suddenly feeling so inferior? And so much so that i always wanted to help people with their problems and think for a moment and notice that I can't even solve my own? Until now I've always been confused regarding what to do now in order to be successful in the future. There's just so many things to think about doing and yet i fail to execute any of them with enthusiasm or satisfaction.
I remember not long ago one fortune teller offered me some advice, haha I know it's abit crazy to believe in this sort of things, she told me to focus on a sole target and work towards it, I am not suitable to do multi tasking. I've been noting what she said until now and paying attention to opportunities that I've been given to do things; work etc. Sadly I haven't found anything currently in my life for me to solely focus on. Other than getting my Diploma and my driving license, or maybe that is what i should just focus and work on?
And because now is holiday, I've nothing to worry with education, maybe that's the reason why i feel like an empty bottle, nothing inside and not nice to look at, just an empty bottle waiting for something or someone to fill in. Someone whom now have bare affliation with me who I've been thinking alot about and don't even or rarely contact each other.
Maybe my life sounds far from a fairy tale, but fairy tales can be made with truth and abit of magical moments in it. I'm waiting for the magical moments.
-Oh and dont worry my little friend who has alot of stuffs to worry about, regarding your attachments and stuffs haha i will be there to give you morale boost!-
I just want to sleep but I can't! Fu*k!
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