Unrequited love. I've been experiencing this forever since my hormones begin to rage I guess. Even until now, I'm facing a seemingly hopeless choice. Though I've been striving to gain a foothold of myself lately just to see through this sudden emotional impact that still harvest in my heart. The recent one has given me this negatively joyous feeling, which contradicts even the man who claim that he can solve all problems.
Actually I don't even know what exactly is wrong with me. Am i in possesion of a iron heart? A heart which have been broken too much being a piece of meat to be replaced by iron because no one is able to fix back to it's original piece again? All these for the unrequited love that haunts me even though I'm at the end of my teenage years.
This sorrowness is just too draggy, I really need someone to settle me down. They say we shouldn't find love, we should let love find us. Monks are definitely not role models for this philosophy. Guess they must've gave up on love. Or maybe they were suffering from EUL. Eternal Unrequited Love. Aahahaha. Life is suffering.(According to Buddha)
Okay I shouldn't mock them, I'm no better either. Life is suffering yes, I can't change it, that's why i'm changing with it. Let time tells what shall eventually befalls me.
