Being yourself is no longer a dream, expressing yourself is no longer a hassle. Live the life and hope the dream, for life is too short to be full of guilts and worries.
I say this because i did something last night, i know it's morally wrong but i believe its conscientious and looking at the positive side, it's a good workout for the ones involved. Nothing emotional but i believe a surge of lust and passion fits the description.
Haven't been getting enough sleeps lately, maybe it's a habit of mine, a really bad habit. I could use the excuse that sleeping is a waste of time, but i know that without sleep i am spending the whole of the following day half asleep.
Like always, the essence of time being alone is the epitome of boredom spent contemplating situations. Make no mistake that i'm feeling a little bit affected by what happened last night, i hope she's really fine with it, she seem a little bit discomfort afraid that things might blow out of proportion. I told her i promise this is not something i would share, as i believe the consequences is unbearable if things gets out of hand.
So let me end my entry with some positive notes.
I believe that man kind alone could change the world with his positivity, that's what i did today, being positive about myself towards my trainees and the close combat lesson i'm teaching. Even though many of them dragged themselves to the hall for the lesson, i manage to give a brief speech to them and hopefully it helps me to conduct the lesson without any difficulties. I believe in stick and carrot method when it comes to controlling these people, i refuse to accept the only way to treat them is by threatening and punishing. Surprisingly despite my lack of sleep, it didn't played any part when i was conducting the lesson and all of them i believe respected me as their instructor.
Great success
1. Completed my first lesson at 1sir, successfully.
2. End my 8 months of abstinence
3. Attended my cousin's 21st bdae bbq celebration
4. Helped wee celebrated her 20th bdae
5. Started to get an understanding of my uni assignment
Things to do TML
1. 1sir icct day 2
2. Tuition with benedict, peiqing, jordan
3. Study
