What did i do to deserve this type of unobliging treatment from people i love.
Should i even love them at all? What have i done. Probably from now on i'll do nothing. I'm literally sick and tired of all the fake shit and bull shit people give me. Fuck all of them. I just wanna have fun and they go find their own entertainment. I really feel like shit sometimes, i feel neglected. Yes i am submissive, yes i enjoy being loved but not loved for a motive, i dont want people to keep making use of me and i dont want to make use of anyone.
Surprisingly the only one that i really love and trust is some one that is 4 yrs older than me, how un comfortable it can be. i am weak yes i am. And the only thing i will and can do is to bounce back. How sad. Thankfully for this blog, for this is the only place where i can release my pain and anger without anyone knowing. I love my life and i will live it the way i want. I will be rich and successful.
