I have to blog! I just have to blog! This is what i should do exactly to pull out all the negative thoughts and feeling i've been having inside of me. Shit it's 2:30am in the morning now and i've to report to office tommorow, but whatever. Even if my eyes is closing down and my body is giving up i have to say these.
Finally, EUGENE LOW! Have come back! to the blogging community. This time i intend to do it privately without anyone knowing... HAHAHA! Don't know how long will I sustain this privacy though.
Wow alot of wonderful things had happened these past few months ever since "that." But whatever, so much things happened that i've been bottling up so much thoughts inside my head and that i've only quite a few people that i had openly and honestly, though briefly shared with. It seems that all these while i've been living a life without self consciousness, or maybe i should say i'm behaving oddly and starting to develop a "fuck all the bitches in the world" mentality ever since that incident.
Also at the same time i had a crush on a few girls which i met in the club while i was working at DXO, i've dated two and danced with and frenched one in the club, all of them are hot and attractive nonetheless. That's what you get by working in the club :). God i'll miss working there. But seriously i think after the 3rd one which i've met in the club and frenched with, i started to question myself actually after a few months of unconscious feeling and thoughts that im sick to death to care so much about. "What do i really want?" Which actually made me fall into depression for a week and i actually went into google to do a "How to be happy", "Love advice", "How to be confidence" search. I arrived at the decision that i have to blog my feelings out after reading that in order to be happy again, i should start to be more honest with myself and actually communicate myself through journalling.
Yes maybe i should do this until my NS days begin, Alright for now i think i've communicate enough with myself i think i should sleep. Maybe before that i should shit first as my stomach is aching now!
