I guess its the time of the week where everyone would feel kind of blue, Monday blues. I know i know, i feel it too, but I'm not exactly that blue, in fact, I'm quite glad, what better way to end the weekend chatting with 4 beautiful girls i loved?
Words have gone out that I'm a player, I've done things that justify that i am in every sense one, but in my heart i know I'm not, I'm quite disturbed by the fact I'm being regarded as that. I definitely wouldn't want her to know I'm one and i would've been very misunderstood if she is to think i am. I just want to love and be loved. She's my supercalifragilisticexpialidocious after all. And also she's highly sort after :)
Talking about her, I'm actually quite hopeful of her being the one, finally after so long, even though i can see she still wants to have fun, meeting new people of the opposite sex. I am really confident that i might finally find someone to hold dearly and sincerely on to in my life. Single isn't that bad, i met alot of new friends, some good, some great, some left, some stayed. I also met a few lot of beautiful girls that are attached and i learn alot from their experiences, i guess i'm really lucky to have known them, i loved them in every way they are and i won't blame them for some of the things they did, i'm sure people has needs too and sometime we get tired of the life we already had and want to try something new. I understand.
Some positive notes (from a negative situation)
Sometime when things gets too messy and complicated and you feel really tired, you should just sleep it out. That's what i did this morning, I woke up in a very bad state, feeling angry, lethargic and short tempered, dragged myself to teach my 11 yrs old cousin tuition and she ends up not bringing the assessment that i required to teach her, which is maths, so basically i have to touch her english and i did it in a very pissed off manner, literally couldn't be bothered and i gave her my point of view why i think she did it on purpose, i guess she felt abit guilty also, i ended the lesson in one hour, suppose to end in one and the half.
So i went home feeling pissed, tired, waning out, then my mom asked me to help settle the window opening, to close it all so no one would try to do something funny or throw something funny into my house. Eg; throwing cigarrete buds through the window into my living room, follow by replacing the bulb of the toilet light, i did it hesitantly, showing bad attitude and finally told her i'm sleeping and not to disturb me. I slammed the door, played some music and went to sleep.
So i woke up at 5pm this time, feeling things amissed, i know now i'm fully awake and alert enough to know what i'm doing, so thanks to jack canfield, i reset my emotion and my thinking, throw all the bad stuffs away from my thoughts and think of all the positive stuffs, i'm glad i did it and succeeded, i ended up studying for my air transport and bought my own dinner, and finally ended the night talking to some of the beautiful people i know in my life. Love them to bits!
Great Success
1. Did not submit to my lusty needs
2. Had fun at dbl o
3. Get to know her more.
4. Feeling positive once again!
To-do Tml
1. Teach the last 6 techniques to my icct trainees, i'm gonna make it a fun filled lesson
2. Tuition for Beverley 630pm
