You were the one i thought, you were the one i need, i thought i found you but i think i'm just reaching out too far. I only want you, should i even be given a chance for all the wrongs i had done? Not towards you, but to people who loved me and yet i neglected. Must all these feelings come and go again? Must you be that one of many that have to go through a roundabout in my mind? I really don't know why but i think you are the one i'd have and i'd do anything for.
But why this sudden feeling? Why this similar type of feelings again? Why can't i have a choice? Why must the one i finally thought i would settle down with inflict the most damaging blow to me once again? And again.....and again...It never ends, it had to be like that everytime, just when i'm about to give it all, or i had already done so.
Im hurt, its self inflicted i guess, or probably it shouldn't have had happened at all. Maybe it was all a dream, a beautiful dream, a heart damaging wish that does not have a head to begin and a tail to end with.
I was having a bad day and all i want to is to see you, that, which i couldn't leave it up to me, nothing was my choice to begin with, its all yours, and it had to be like this, im left stranded and wanting more of you, this is probably my pride im finding it hard to overcome.
I thought i was strong, i thought i could handle it, i thought i've been through it and i can never suffer like that again, i don't want to cry... i really dont want to. This is what i brought myself into. Might this be really how i wanted it to be like, a pitiful end and a chance to experience a broken heart.
