Confession

Just when i thought everything is over, gonna start a new lease of life again, god has a changed of plans. Apparently he decided to shove more shit into my already shitty life and make me feel pathetic. So now i've to whine about how lousy my life is and hoping for someone to symphatize with me. That is while sad to say i can only wish for. I am a man, so to ask for symphathy from a lady is to ask for a suicide pill. But whatever, wind direction changes and the stars will die one day. So as of now i will tell myself to not let my ego seek its pleasure. That is to find someone else to symphatize with my feeling which i had already foolishly expressed just now to one girl friend of mine. How foolish of me. I feel really giving myself a good excuse to seek symphathy now, how hypocritical i am.... I want to be stronger, i want to be a man, i want my never say die mentality back, i want that fighting teen spirit of mine that i used to have, that ever ignorant guy that'll do everything he can to get what he wants. That elzw that he is borned to be. give me back myself!