Wow. Three days without rain, summer is approaching. My mood is unstable and the cause of it i shall not deny.
I'm going to be honest with myself, it's because of a girl. Some pretty babe i knew at a club through my primary school friend. I was on a high that night and i wasn't so aware of my actions either, but nonetheless i am sure that i was dancing with her throughout.
So long story short, I got her number and her msn soon after. So from my own personal experience with many other girls I didn't really expect to hit it off with her that well, in my mind she's really just another clubbing girl i know and our relationship as that isn't gonna last any longer. But instead we clicked well and talk about alot of things even though i must admit that my grammar and vocabs are not as strong as hers, therefore i feel the need to construct my sentence properly whenever i replied her msg. We were chatting everyday since then and i guess both of us begin to be opened about our private life towards each other and she seem to be treating me as more than "the guy whom i knew from at club." She even confessed it to me herself which i'm kinda suprised about.
And then the following week we hit the club again, same club and almost the same people with a few additional friends of mine and one of hers. Yet again i was drunk when she came and we danced together again, just that this time i was like insanely groping and violating her. Can't help it i guess, she's hot and she didn't seems to mind.
The week after that night was not really the same as the week before, as we begin to lack of things to chat about and most of what we could talk about was about the night we clubbed and her relationship with her ongoing boyfriend. Then came last wednesday when i asked her out for a drink which she at first agreed to it, so i went down to town and wait for her and finally decided to meet somewhere around clark quay together with one of her friend and one of mine. However, ashes to ashes, dust to dust, plans changed and we ended up clubbing at the same club again. This time with the same people and additional few other guys from my friend's side. So we were sitting at this table as my friend had ordered a bottle earlier on. Then she came with one of her girlfriends, and all the guys sitting around me were like mind fucking her and i'm not really affected by it. She's hot. So everyone started to flirt with her and so on. While she was sitting next to my friend and flirtting with him and i was getting higher and higher her attention switch to me and we begin to get quite touchy with each other. Anyway the next few hours we were clinging to each other almost everywhere we go, to the smoking room, to the dance floor to the bar. I think i kinda smell from the sweat i leaked while travelling throghout town and clark quay which i guess she didn't mind either. So the fun time ends with a few slight incident happened in between and then came the next faithful day.
I msged her on msn seeing her nick to be spelling quite depressingly, asking her how is she and so on. So i guess she's suffering from some relationship problem and then without asking much of it our conversation starts to get abit stale which i'm really finding it hard to accept and kinda disappointed by her slow reply, though i acted cool throughout and told her some sick stories concerning myself. She was so cold so i decided to go out and catch a movie with my friend instead of wasting my time waiting for her reply.
So there it goes again i guess this time i really find myself taking the same emotional rollercoaster ride again like the same with many other girls i've dated since last year. Man i really want to settle down and i really want to remain being good friends with her where we can share alot of our problems with and occassionally flirt around with each other. Sigh.... troubled times.
